Our portfolio really doesn’t follow either the NYSE or Nasdaq. It seems to march to the beat of its own very stubborn drum.

Take last Tuesday, June 2nd, for example. The S&P 500 rose +0.13% and closed above 7,600 for the first time ever. Nasdaq was also up +0.03% and hit a new all-time high. The internet was full of people celebrating new records and flexing their gains.

Meanwhile, our portfolio was sitting comfortably in the red, completely unfazed by the party happening everywhere else.

You don’t exactly feel like Gordon Gekko in those moments. While everyone else is posting screenshots of their glorious green portfolios, you’re quietly wondering if you should just delete the brokerage app, go outside and touch some grass. Or at least pretend you don’t check the numbers five times a day.

Then comes a day like today — when the broad market is bleeding red and our portfolio is actually up +0.7%. Suddenly I’m strutting around the apartment like I just outsmarted the entire financial system, even though it’s probably just random luck and currency movements doing most of the heavy lifting.

It really doesn’t take much to swing this portfolio owner’s mood. One day I’m convinced I’m a financial genius who timed everything perfectly. The next day I’m pretty sure I should just hand everything over to a robot and go lie down in a dark room.

The emotional whiplash is real — and I suspect I’m not the only one.

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